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Someone Like you

Image Description @missblackbungo   |   17 January 2018


"The more that is real, the more it is right"

"The more that is real the more it's right"

You've always questioned this love I have for you ever since I confessed my feelings towards you on the night of August 6. Remember you've asked me why you when there's a lot of girls that likes me and I told you that my heart wants and beats for just the way I'm loving it and it's with you...

It's the truth.

Your laugh and just your happy vibes keeps getting into me that I couldn't seem to pass a day without some glimpse of it. You're like a magnet to me. You attract every bit of me. You fill the emptiness inside me and make me whole again.

You're enough.

I know change is constant and I felt it first-hand without noticing it. Your presence seemed to be so addicting, that I longed for you over and over again.

And I want only "US" to happen again.

-

Ep. 1: The meet up

"Ed!" My friend and my baseball mate, Marco called.

Today is our first day of class as high school students. I am looking forward for a great stay and memories to keep.

"Oh, Marco! Bakit ang saya mo?" I asked and laughed a bit "excited na excited ata" dagdag ko

"Nah, you know, first day of class meaning new people to meet kasi Imposibleng wala!" he said while looking around

"Maraming new faces Ed, for sure maraming magaganda! Aren't you excited?" sabay akbay niya sa akin.

"Excited?" I asked "I'm looking forward for another good year and a fruitful stay, that's just it." I said killing the idea he's been trying to highlight.

"Grabeh naman, palibhasa gwapo at maraming may crush sakanya!" he said as he rolled his eyes.

I shook my head, pasaway talaga ng Marco na 'to.

"Good morning Ed!" a group of girls greeted

"Good morning!" I greeted back

"Grabeh, parang hindi ako nakita ah! Iba ka talaga Mr. Famous!" si Marco and I sighed.

We went to the bulletin board section to check our classroom assignments and sadly hindi kami classmates ni Marco.

"Sayang naman! See you around nalang pre!" he said

"Sus! We're just one classroom away bro! Ang arte!" I giggled a bit and headed to my new classroom.

Well, just another usual scenario for a usual first day of class.

"Hi, I'm Edgar! You can call me Ed" I said and finished my introduction with a huge smile.

Well, hindi naman ako bago sa school na'to kaya mentioning my name is enough.

Pagkatapos ko ay agad namang may sumunod.

"Hello" a girl said in a low tone we can't barely hear, face down, long hair a bit down and her presence seems to be so gloomy.

"Face your classmates Ija" our teacher said because honestly she seemed too wary.

"I'm Marydale" she said and I hope I got her name right.

Ang hina naman kasi talaga ng boses niya and just right after she said that simple introduction she went directly to her seat and I didn't even notice na katabi pala kami. She's strange.

"Hi!" I said to Marydale after our homeroom class "Bago ka dito?" I asked with my wide smile

Sa lahat kasi ng andito sa classroom, siya ang pinaka unfamiliar para sa akin.

"Ed! Don't talk to her, she's cursed! She's a witch" A girl classmate said, and I can't seem to absorb what she said na napatawa ako.

What?! Are they kidding me?

"Get a life Melby" I said to the girl who warned me about Marydale and obviously defending Marydale na wala namang ginawang masama, that's pretty rude.

"Excuse me!" Marydale said at tumayo siya at agad umalis ng classroom. Is she angry? I'm innocent.

"Pinagtanggol mo pa iyon eh totoo naman ang sinabi ko no! Sabi nila, possessed daw iyang si Marydale. She's a psycho." natawa si Melby and I can't help but feel offended in behalf of Marydale.

"You're really rude Melby!" I said in disappointment.

How can she spread rumours as nonsense as that, huh?

I went out of the classroom to look for Marydale and I can't seem to find her anywhere. Yes, she's weird looking but I don't think she deserves that kind of judgement.

"Sino hinahanap mo pre? chiks?" si Marco

"Eh? How did you know I'm looking for someone?" I asked

"Eh? Talaga ba? Wala naman. Kanina ka pa kasi tingin ng tingin sa kung saan eh!" Natawa siya "So, sino hinahanap mo? Babae? Maganda ba?" he said and I sighed,

This Marco is really a pain sometimes.

In the end, hindi ko na nakita si Marydale the whole day and I honestly felt bad dahil feeling ko I triggered the judgement towards her a bit. I mean, kung hindi ko siya kinausap carelessly or maybe... I sighed. I hope she's okay though.

I'm on my way now to the field as I'm into my baseball gear already. I'm a varsity and captain ball of the team and baseball is my favourite sport. As I'm walking in the corridor, I heard someone talking and laughing on her own. I was curious and decided to check who and what it is...

And I'm surprised, si Marydale pala at naglalaro siya ng isang kuting.

"Hey!" I greeted "Hinahanap kita kanina pero umabsent ka! Bawal umabsent sa first day uy!" I said smiling at her.

She looked startled with my presence na parang may nakita siyang multo.

"Umalis kana!" she said and she sounded a bit angry.

"Eh? Wala naman akong ginagawang masama ah." I said and smiled at her and I even attempted to sit beside her but she suddenly stood up at umiwas sa 'akin. This girl is weird but she's cute.

"H-hindi ka ba natatakot sa akin?" she asked

"Why should I? Are you a witch for real?" natawa ako pero I saw her scowl and started to look away from me

"If that's what you think then umalis kana" she said "I might curse you for real" sabi niya at mediyo nagulat ako.

"Will you do that to someone na wala namang ibang ginusto kundi maging kaibigan ka? That's rude" natawa ako, she seemed surprise of what she heard.

"Friends?" she chuckled a bit. "Hindi ako naniniwala sa bagay na 'yan! At hindi mo ako mapapaniwala tungkol diyan"

I don't know why she said that pero for me, what she's showing me now makes her more fascinating to me, parang mas gusto ko pa siyang makilala.

"I'll make you believe then" I winked at her "I'm Edgar and you're Marydale right?" I said

"Naalala mo?" she asked and I can't help but smile

"Oo naman! Ako pa!" I said and seemed proud.

"I still don't believe you kaya umalis kana" she said "at mukhang maglalaro ka ata ng baseball, you're late"

"Hala!" I said "This is your fault then" I said

"Huh? Bakit?" she's shock and her shock face is really entertaining

"Because, you won't accept me as a friend! Paparusahan ako dahil na late ako ngayon, hindi ka ba makokosensya?" I looked at her.

"Bahala ka!" she didn't fall for it though.

"See you tomorrow Marydale" I gestured good bye to her at umalis na.

In the end I got punished for being late that day but it's okay, I saw Marydale lurking around and it seems like she's watching over me from a far. Hindi daw maniniwala sa friendship, huh?

"Sit up pa Edgar!" says our coach and I sighed.

-

Ep. 2: Friends

Wala akong ibang ginawa kundi ang pansinin ng pansinin si Marydale. Every day I greet her good morning, or just a simple "hi" kahit wala namang sagot mula sakanya. Weird, right?

"Hey! Sabi ko na nga ba andito ka lang eh" I said to her noong nakita ko na naman siya sa likod ng school building and she's with the kitten again "Hindi parin ba tayo friends?" I asked

"Kailan ka ba titigil? Mapagod ka naman! Okay lang naman akong mag-isa ah! Bakit nandito ka parin?" she asked

"Dahil gusto nga kita maging kaibigan! And, stopping right now is for the weak! I'm serious Marydale, let's be friends" I said and extended my hands for a handshake. Nakailang tanggi na siya sa'kin and I hope this time, hindi na.

"You're just making fun of me or... naaawa ka lang sa'kin eh!" she sounded sad

"No, not at all" I said and finally sit beside her na hindi siya nagrereact. "I really want to be your friend, trust me Marydale" I said genuinely.

"Pero bakit nga?" she asked

"Because..." bakit nga ba?

Mediyo napaisip ako ah.

"...because, hindi ko alam. My intensions are real Marydale, just try" I said and honestly nahirapan akong sagutin ang tanong niyang iyon.

"Call me Cathy then" sabi niya

"Eh?" mediyo nagulat ako. "Bakit?"

"Dahil gusto mong magkaibigan tayo diba? Cathy is my nickname and few people lang ang nakakaalam including you. I'm trusting you from now on because you're my friend" she said.

At kahit naguluhan ako ay hindi na ako nagtanong pa kung bakit, what's clear to me is her 3 last words, friends na kami.

Araw-araw ay nagkikita kami ni Mary-I mean ni Cathy sa likod ng school! I don't know pero kung sa klase hindi kami nagpapansinan, sa likod naman ng eskwelahan ay magkaibigan kami na nagtatawan. Throwing jokes to each other, sharing stories at pati personal life namin ay nakukuwento namin sa isa't-isa. It feels amazing and weird at the same time. I don't know why she's like this, parang kakaiba siya at malayo sakanyang imahe bilang Marydale ang Cathy na masayahing nakakasalamuha ko, para siyang may dalawang identity.

"Cathy?" I called

"Yes, Edgar?" she responded kahit busy siya sa pagpapakain ng pusa.

"Why do we have to hide our friendship to everyone else? Bakit kailangan natin maging strangers sa isa't-isa sa classroom but ang totoo magkaibigan naman tayo? Can we show others our friendship instead?" I suggested

"But, can't you sense Edgar na pinoprotektahan ko lang ang friendship natin?" she said while looking straight to my eyes "Pag nalaman nila na magkaibigan tayo, people will surely judge you because of me, they will question you kung bakit nakipag kaibigan ka sa isang taong tulad ko. Weird, witch, psycho o hindi kaya ay possessrd. Aren't you scared Edgar?" she explained and somehow naliwanagan ako dahil gets ko naman ang punto niya.

"But I don't care Cathy" I said directly "Mabait at masaya akong kaibigan kita. I will never be ashamed of our friendship and will never deny it! I don't really care about other people's judgement dahil we know each other well and we know better kung sino ang paniniwalaan natin diba?" dagdag ko

"Really?" tanong niya and I nodded

"Be my date sa acquaintance" I said and her shock and amazed face really and still entertaining to me. "Please?" I begged

she sighed yet she nodded.

Oh, Cathy.

Ep. 3 Smile

Just as I wanted and suggested, Cathy and I showed everyone our friendship in school where everyone can see it. I was questioned but I never really cared what other people think because what matters most to me right now is to prove to everyone else that Cathy isn't like what they have always judged her to be. Cathy is a nice and charming lady and she's definitely just perfect for what she is and that Cathy or I should say that the Marydale I've known to be so gloomy and sad is gone and now she looks like a diamond, shining.

"Ed" si Marco

"Oh? Bakit?" I asked.

Nasa practice kami ngayon for our Saturday's match against another school.

"Sigurado ka ba sa friendship mo sa weird girl na 'yon?" he asked and I know it's about Mary-Cathy again.

"Yeah. We've been friends for quite a while now and please? If you're going to judge me because of her then shut up, okay? She's not like what everybody's talking about, so please?" I said.

Hindi ko alam at hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit napaka judgemental ng mga tao. Why are they so quick to judge basing with what they see not because of what they know?! It's annoying.

"Cathy!" I called upon her "Sorry kung natagalan ako ha?" I said as I got near her.

"Okay lang Edgar" she smiled and actually I've been seeing her smile a lot of times already and trust me and I hope everyone will see how beautiful it is.

Sabay kaming umuuwi ni Cathy araw-araw dahil nalaman naming na isang block lang pala ang pagitan ng mga houses namin at nilalakad lang talaga.

"Salamat sa paghatid Edgar ha? Baka gusto mong pumasok?" she asked and it's the first time na niyaya niya ako pumasok kahit mediyo matagal ko na siyang hinahatid pauwi.

"Really? Pwede?" I said at hindi parin ako makapaniwala

"Oo pwede" she smiled "Nakailang kwento naman na ako kay Mama tungkol sa'yo at gusto ka niyang makilala kaya pasok kana" she said and I sensed she's a bit shy talking about it.

Naikukuwento niya pala ako sa Nanay niya.

"Ma, andito po si Edgar" si Cathy

Hindi ko maintindihan pero sa totoo lang I'm a bit nervous right now thinking na makikita ko ang nanay niya, pero finally kahit na kinakabahan ako ay masaya ako dahil Cathy's really improving.

Lumabas ang kanyang ina and wala akong masabi kundi kahit iniwan na si Cathy ng Daddy niya ay swerte parin si Cathy dahil mabait ang nanay niya and niyaya pa ako na mag dinner and of course, I agreed.

"Thank you for coming Edgar at sa pagiging mabuti mong kaibigan sa anak ko, hindi ko alam kung paano kita mapapasalamatan dahil... dahil sa'yo ay tila nanumbalik ang pagiging masayahin at magiliw ng anak ko. Akala ko hindi na siya kailanman babalik sa pagiging ganoon eh" sabi ni Tita Elizabeth habang bumili lang muna ng maiinom si Cathy sa tindahan.

"Welcome po. I'm really happy na at least nakatulong po ako sakanya. Cathy's a good person po tita and I'm glad I'm her friend" I said.

"Sana'y mag tuloy-tuloy na" Si Tita Elizabeth as if she's about to cry "Nahirapan si Cathy sa pagkawala ng kanyang ama, she's traumatized dahil nalaman niyang iniwan kami ng tatay niya para sa ibang pamilya at masakit sakanyang makita ang tatay niyang masaya kasama ang ibang pamilya. Bullied at nakailang therapy na kami sa depression na nararamdaman niya at masaya ako dahil ngayon ay nakikita ko na ang unti-unti niyang pagbangon, maraming salamat sa'yo" she said

"Naku Tita! I've just treated Mary--- Cathy kung ano ang nararapat at deserve niya. She's a strong woman and I admire her for that" I said "And I will always make her feel better and will be watching her out for you tita!" I said and smiled.

Somehow naiintindihan ko na ang side ni Cathy. Why she's aloof to people, why she's having some hard time to appreciate and trust others.

"Edgar, salamat ha?" she said all wide smile

"Anytime, Cathy" and I smiled back

"See you tomorrow at ingat ka sa daan ha?" she said and I nodded

"I'll see you tomorrow my Cathy" I said and I winked.

And she smiled more and it's a beautiful scene to watch all over and over again.

Ep. 4 Date

The night has come for that "date" night. Tonight's our acquaintance party and I'm really excited to see Cathy and how she'd look like tonight. I'm supposed to fetch her in her house but she refused because she said she wanted to surprise me with her look and trust me! I can't seem to calm down! I'm freaking excited.

"Ed? Wala ka bang date? Iniwan mo na and friend mo kuno because you've realized we're right all along, right?" si Melby and she's with her friends right now.

"If you don't have any nice words to say about her Melby then leave." I said and I'm serious.

"Kayo ba?" she asked with her annoying voice. I can't help but sighed

"Hala si Marydale iyan diba?" I heard someone said kaya napatingin ako sa entrance and I feel like my whole being is being cemented on the floor. Hindi ako makagalaw sa sobrang amazed.

"Ang ganda niya"

"Parang hindi naman totoo iyong mga chismiss"

"Hindi ko alam na maganda pala siya at hindi naman pala siya..."

I heard people at my back talking about her at kahit sila nabigla at nagulat sa transformation ni Marydale.

I can't help but smile and my heart feels jumping in joy na masakit sa dibdib, it feels like it's about to explode because Marydale seemed like she planted a bomb inside my heart.

"Pangit ba ako?" she said suddenly. Sobra akong tulala that I didn't even noticed she's infront of me already.

"Ang ganda mo" the only words that came out from my mouth.

Her, wearing a long white long gown, with a light make up on and her tied back hair making me see her face clearly. Simple but really beautiful.

"Really? Or binibiro mo lang ako?" she giggled

"When did I ever lie to you?" I said and I can't even take my eyes off her.

"Sus" she said "Sige na nga, maniniwala na ako" and she smiled.

"You're so beautiful my Marydale" I said

"Cathy" she corrected me looking straight to my eyes and I nodded.

While the song is playing and as we are feeling the night like it's ours, I walked Cathy on the dance floor and dance with her feeling like we're the only people left on earth. This is the time; I can't waste more of it.

"Cathy, my Cathy" I said uttering her name again and again kahit alam ko namang Marydale naman talaga.

"Edgar?" she responded

"I like you" I said with no other words in between "I just like you"

I said and I don't know why tears are suddenly forming into my eyes, the emotion is too high and my hopes are urging me to be strong and take this risk.

"Pero bakit ako?" she asked

"Bakit hindi ikaw?" I asked back looking straight into her eyes "you're perfect and you don't have to ask me why Cathy" I said whispering it to her, pulling her closer to me, feeling the song.

"I-I like you too Edgar" she said and I know she needed full amount of courage to say that and I admired her more for that. "gusto kitang mahalin kahit natatakot ako" she said and I saw bits of tears run down her face. "You've accepted me for who I am and I can't thank you enough for saving me when I thought there's no end to the darkness I was in..." her words are like wounds the speaks and I'm willing to heal them away.

"... You deserve someone better and I know sobrang layo ko at wala akong laban sa iba, pero kahit ganoon paman Edgar, I'm willing to take the risk" she smiled and I feel like I'm the luckiest guy right now.

As much as I wanted to hold it in pero hindi ko nagawa, I gave her a kiss on the exact night she said yes for an us.

Ep. 5 : Us

It's been a year since that day and Cathy and I made our love for each other stronger and everyday has always been a blessing. Every day we get to know each other more and deeper. Masaya ako, sobrang saya.

Maraming hindi nakakaintindi sa mga naging desisyon naming para sa sarili naming but what's more important for Cathy and I right now is that we have the support of our parents. We learned to careless of what people think of us and focused ourselves to what's beneficial for our relationship.

"Good luck Edgar!" she said as I'm getting ready for a baseball match.

"Kiss muna para manalo kami" I said playfully and she did without any second thought.

"I love you Edgar!" she said

"I love you more, more and more!" I shouted happily.

The game started and I'm inspired as ever, the best cheerleader is here kaya dapat galingan ko talaga!

"We're winning" our coach said "hit the ball Edgar! Okay?" and I nodded

Ako na ang mag-ba-bat ng bola and before positioning ay hinanap ng mata ko ang cheerleader ko and I saw her at talagang mas kinakabahan pa siya sa akin and I can't even hide my adoration for this girl.

Tinamaan ko ang bola and all I need now is to run like I'm chasing something to stay alive when suddenly my world blocked out.

And the next thing I woke up ay nakahiga na ako sa hospital bed.

"Tita gising na po si Edgar" and just by hearing her voice alam kong si Cathy ito, now, I'm feeling better.

"Anak, okay ka lang ba?" my mom

As much as I wanted to say I'm fine, The doctor's findings says I'm not and will never be again. I was diagnosed with stage 3 cancer of the blood, crucial battle.

And I'm not really sure why I have to be in this kind of situation.

Paano na ang pangako ko kay Cathy na hindi ko siya iiwan?

Walang araw ang nagdaan na dinadasal ko na maging okay ang lahat. That everything will be okay, kahit hindi na ako but the people beside me nalang, my mom and my dad and of course si Cathy.

I promised her that I will never be like her father na iiwan siya. Pero, paano na ngayon?

"Edgar, let's fight with this together ha?" she said and she's smiling so wide "Alam ko magiging mahirap but let's just trust na hindi tayo pababayaan ng nasa itaas, everything will be fine, right?" Cathy said and I nodded.

I thought everything's going to be okay, I hoped. I thought I could cope up and win this pero every day I get weaker and weaker.

"Edgar! Good morning" si Cathy, smiling positively to me as she enters my hospital room.

Cathy didn't gave me any reason to surrender but instead she gave me enough reasons to hang-on and believe that it's going to be fine and that we're holding on to that one pinch of hope that we have. I was in and out of the hospital for months and Cathy didn't left my side kahit natutulog ako ay natutulog siya sa tabi ko.

I want her to pursue her studies kahit andito ako sa hospital at kahit ayaw niya dahil gusto niya lang dito siya sa tabi ko ay sinunod niya parin ang gusto ko

"I'll be fine" I said and smiled at her

"Eh, Edgar naman kasi eh! Wala naman daw kaming gagawin masyado bukas at promise, tapos na ako sa mga assignment ko" she said and I know she's just making excuses.

"My Cathy, I promise everything's going to be fine. I want you to rest dahil ayaw kong mapagod ka! May pasok ka pa bukas ah!" I said "Hihintayin kita, okay?" I said and smiled.

"Promise?" she said and I felt a sting inside me when she asked me with this.

I smiled and nod because I don't want to utter words I'm not even sure I can keep up to.

"Cathy" I called "Mary-Marydale" I called her in her real name na kahit alam kong ayaw niya dahil maaalala niya lang ang tatay niya na mismong nagbigay ng pangalan niya daw sakanya ay ginagawa ko parin.

"I love you" I said and I made sure she heard it.

"I love you too my Edgar" she said and kissed me and it's actually the first time she didn't react when I called her real name.

I swear I didn't want to see her walk out from that door and I swear I didn't want to leave her and if only I have a choice to have another life, I hope I can spend it with Cathy again, be it if she prefers to be called as Marydale or just Cathy again.

I accepted our fate although I really want to question God about what happened. Bakit ang bilis naman? Bakit agad-agad? I've prepared myself for this day to come pero now that the day has come I can only ask for an extension kahit ilang oras lang makita at masabi ko lang ulit kung gaano ko siya ka mahal that kahit sa kabilang buhay, I'll find her and I'll love her again and for that time, It's going to be infinite

I want another us with her.

Ep. 6: Be strong

Dear Edgar,

How are you there? do you miss me? Yeah, I miss you too. I miss you so much.

Nag-aaral na ako ng college, ikaw? masaya ba diyan?

Naaalala ko noon sabay tayong nagpapaenrol tuwing malapit na pasukan kasi dapat classmates tayo! Dapat same section, pati mga gamit natin sa eskwela same din dapat magkaiba lang ang kulay. Haha. Saya natin no?

Nakabili na ako ng gamit sa eskwela, as usual pink yung kulay ng mga binili ko, sayo ba blue? Blue dapat ha? hehe.

Miss na miss na kita! Mag-aaral akong mabuti para maging proud ka sakin. Matutupad din ang mga pangarap ko na binuo natin noon. hehe.

Sa ngayon, dito na muna kita kakausapin ha? Tsaka ko na ipapabasa to sayo kung nagkita na tayo. :) at magsusulat ako araw-araw kung kinakailangan kaya sana hindi ka mabored sa kakabasa nito. Gusto ko lang magkwento sayo, kasi naiisip ko na sa pagkikita natin muli ay yayakapin lang kita ng mahigpit. Hehe.

Miss na miss na talaga kita.

Love,

Cathy ?

-

I don't know how this happens but I felt like Cathy's talking to me. I can't see her but I'm hearing her again and I'm happy how she's being so strong after all what happened. That's my Cathy.

-

Dear Edgar,

Waaaaaa! First day of class done. Grabeh iyong kaba ko kanina! huhu :( Pero parang naririnig ko na chinicheer mo ako kanina kahit malayo ka. Salamat ha? Ay ayan nabuang na naman ako. hihi (>_<)

May bago akong nakilalang kaibigan ngayon at ang pangalan niya ay Vanessa, katulad ko ay baguhan din siya sa eskwelahan. So far, mabait siya at mediyo mahinhin nga lang. hehe! Feeling ko magkakasundo kaming dalawa, sa tingin mo aabot sa punto na magkukwento ako ng tungkol sayo sakanya? hehe. Chismosa ba? Gusto ko lang kasi ikwento sakanya kung paano mo pinasaya at napapasaya ang buhay ko kahit magkalayo tayo :')

Ay! Iyong school ko? sobrang ganda ng bagong school ko Edgar! Alam mo may nakasabay pa ako kanina sa tren, kamukha mo siya pero mas gwapo ka (naks). Sa school din namin siya nag-aaral pero hindi kami classmates. Oy! H'wag kang magseselos pag nabasa mo 'to ha? Haha. Nagmamaganda na naman ako.

Hay! Namimiss ko tuloy iyong mga panahong ayaw mong nagkakacrush ako saiba dahil gusto mo ikaw lang! Hahaha. Weird no? noon naiirita ako sa ugali mong iyon pero ngayon namimiss ko yun. Oy Edgar, baka may crush karin iba diyan ha? alam kong maraming magaganda diyan! Kokonyatan kita pag meron ka ng pinalit sa akin :/ Char lang. Hawak ko ang promise mo at alam kong hindi mo ugaling hindi tumupad, kahit sabi mo noon hindi mo ako iiwan, well, tulad nga ng sabi mo magkikita ulit tayo kaya sige, maghihintay ako! At talagang excited na ako.

Basta relax ka lang diyan ha? At sana masaya karin diyan dahil ako ngayon masaya naman. hehe.

Sige, matutulog na ako Edgar ha? Bukas ulit. Miss na kita ?

Love,

Cathy ?

--

Cathy's talking to me and keeping me updated and I can sense happiness in the midst of her struggles. I know this is hard for her but I'm really glad that she's happy somehow. She met a friend and I'm happy that she did and I'm happy to know she's doing her best to have one and I only pray for a genuine and true friendship with her and Vanessa.

-
Dear Edgar,

Gusto ko umiyak!!! Huhuhuhuhu! (TT_____TT) Ayoko na. Alam ko magagalit ka kung bakit pero hindi ko talaga sinasadya.

Sobrang depress ako ngayon. Sorry ha, alam kong ayaw mo ako na umiiyak pero kanina pa ako umiiyak dahil sobrang tanga ko! Edgaaaar!!! Huhuhu.

Nawawala ang panyo na binigay mo sa akin!! Huhu. remember, sabi ko sayo noon na magiging lucky panyo ko yun?! Kanina ginamit ko kasi may reporting ako panglucky lang sana kaso......

NAWALA KO! Ayoko na!!! Paano na ako nito? Sobrang sakit sa pakiramdam. Hindi na gets ni Vanessa kung bakit ganoon nalang kahalaga ang panyo na iyon sa akin ang sagot ko sakanya, ay bigay mo ito at talagang napakaimportante nito sa akin. Sobrang sakit sa pakiramdam.

Sorry Edgar ha? Hindi ko iningatan ang binigay mo sa akin :(((( sobrang naiinis ako sa sarili ko kasi bakit nag pabaya ako. Bakit?!

Alam ko kung kasama kita ngayon, papagalitan mo lang ako at tatawanan dahil nagkakaganito ako dahil lang sa gamit na bigay mo pero ngayon masisisi mo ba ako kung halos buong araw na akong umiiyak? magkalayo tayo Edgar at isa iyong gamit na hindi lang basta-basta. Huhu.

Sobrang sakit sa pakiramdam. Paano ako makaka-move'on? :'(

Hindi ako okay! :( Alam ko na pagkabasa mo nito soon aasarin mo lang ako! Paano yan? ilang taon pa aabutin ko para mabigyan mo ulit ako ng panyo.
:( Sobrang sakit.

Ps:

Sorry kung balak ko umabsent bukas, hahanapin ko iyong panyo mo. :( Sorry.

Love,
Cathy :(

-

And now my Cathy's sad. She lost the handkerchief I gave her when she used to be a cry baby whenever she's bullied and I swear I want to tell her that it's fine and she doesn't have to be sad about it because it's nothing at kahit mawala pa lahat ng naibigay ko sakanya as long as she never loses the love I gave her ay okay lang sa'kin, If only I can tell her these pero hindi eh. I can't.

Hay Cathy, please don't be sad.

-

Dear Edgar,

Halos isang linggo din ako hindi nakakasulat sayo, sorry ha? sa totoo lang kasi naguilty ako sa nangyari at sobrang nadepress ako sa nangyari. Hindi maintindihan ng iba kung bakit nag kaganoon ako dahil sa panyo.

Sorry din kung muntik na kami mag-away ni mama dahil lang doon, pero kalaunan ay naintindihan niya rin naman. Sinasabihan narin ako sa eskwelahan ako ng iba na ang weird ko daw at baliw na. Mahalaga sa akin ang gamit na 'yon. Importanteng tao ang nagbigay nun sa akin, hindi basta-basta panyo lang. Naiiyak na naman ako sa tuwing naaalala ko ito. (TTuTT)

PERO, Yehey! Nabalik na sa akin ang panyo mo Edgar! Oh diba? Kanina lang ay ibinigay sa akin ng lalaking lagi ko nakakasabay halos sa tren, remember him? Iyong sabi ko na kamukha mo kaso mas gwapo ka lang? Hehe. Siya ang nakapulot nito, nahulog ko daw pala sa tren noong araw na mawala ito. He tried naman daw na isauli kaso nakailang absent ako sa klase at hindi siya makahanap ng tsempo! Eh kanina nagkasabay kami sa tren ulit at naibalik niya na nga! Huhu.

Alam mo ba? Sa sobrang tuwa ko ay naiyak ako at alam kong nagulat siya sa naging reaksyon ko at malamang baliw narin ang tingin niya sa akin. Pero, di bale na! Malaki ang pasasalamat ko sakanya dahil ibinalik niya sa akin ang panyo mo, pangako hinding hindi ko na wawalain ito. ?

Sige Edgar ha? Matutulog na ako dahil bukas mag-aaral akong gumawa ng cookies, balak ko bigyan iyong lalaki ng cookies para makapasalamat sa nagawa niyang kabutihan.(^^)

Good night sana ay wag ka ng mag-alala sa akin at sorry kung nadepress ako at sorry dahil matagal akong hindi nakasulat. Napahaba tuloy :-P

Miss na miss na kita Edgar ?

Love,
Cathy ?

PS: Hindi ko nakuha ang pangalan ng lalaki pero tatanungin ko siya muli sa lunes ^^

--

I missed you Cathy! Finally you've talked to me again. If only I can tell yoj how worried I am dahil hindi mo ako kinausap. I was waiting for you my dear Cathy but now finally! And I'm happy that you're talking to me in a happy mood again.

And it seems like you've met a new friend? I'm happy Cathy, I really am. And the way you're saying that he looks like me? Nah! Well, I'm glad mas gwapo ako sakanya. I giggled

Anyways, I'm glad that you're fine already my Cathy.

I miss you too.

-

Dear Edgar,

Kamusta? Ako, okay lang ako! Nakaka-adjust na ako sa bago kong eskwelahan at syempre masaya, totoong masaya ako dahil kasama ko si Vanessa, kasangga namin ang isa't-isa at unti-unti na nabubuo ang tiwala ko sakanya, Ikukuwento kita sakanya dahil curious narin siya sayo. hehe.

Naibigay ko na nga pala sa lalaki iyong cookies na ginawa ko, ayaw niya sana tanggapin kaso sinabi ko na pasasalamat ko iyon dahil sobrang pinasaya niya ako sa pagsauli niya ng panyo mo kaya tinanggap niya rin naman at ang sabi niya masarap ng iyong cookies na pati ang nanay niya at kapatid niya ay nagustuhan ito. Edward nga pala ang pangalan ng lalaki. Nakakatawa lang dahil parehas kayo "Ed", kamukha na nga aba may similarities pa kayo sa pangalan. Kulit. hehe.

Edgar, wala ka bang plano bisitahin ako? Hehe. Akala ko ba bibisita ka kung may pagkakataon?! Hmp, busy ka ba diyan at hindi mo ako mabisita? Namimiss na kita. Hindi mo ata ako miss eh :'(

Masyadong malayo at ayaw ni Mama na ako lang mag-isang pumunta kung nasaan ka ngayon kaya sabi niya sa semestral break nalang daw at sasamahan niya ako. Excited na tuloy ako kaso ang Tagal pa nun! >_< Tiis at enjoy na muna tayo ha?

Can't wait na maikwento ko saiyo sa personal ang mga ganap! Mas masaya pag personal pero romantic pag sa sulat! Haha.

Onga pala, baka hindi na muna ako makakasulat ha? exam na kasi namin at kailangan ko mag-aral ng mabuti! Char char.

Magsusulat ako muli pag tapos ng exam namin ha? Gagalingan ko syempre dahil isa ka sa mga inspirasyon ko! :)

Goodnight and see you soon Edgar.

Love,
Cathy?

-

Hello my Cathy, I'm really happy that you're doing well right now. Hearing you utter these words from your heart is happiness to me and If only I can tell you how happy I am right now because I know you're doing fine, I know it's hard and you're hiding so much of your real emotion but I am happy that you chosed to face this with a strong image.

Edward? You're right, what a coincident, pero sure ka namang mas gwapo ako ha? I laughed a bit.

And my Cathy, if only I can visit you for real, hug you and kiss you and tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you, I will Cathy, I will.

Good luck on your exam my Cathy.

-

Dear Edgar,

Grabeh sobrang naging busy ako sa eskwela. Sorry ha? Baka na feel mo na wala na akong time na kausapin ka dito. Hindi yun ganun! Wala namang oras na lumilipas na hindi kita naiisip eh. Lagi ka sa isipan ko at syempre, lagi ka sa puso ko.

Katatapos lang pala ng intrams namin. Audience lang ako, kaming dalawa ni Vanessa! Hehe, wala naman akong sports na alam Edgar eh! Noon paman dakilang audience lang naman ako, at number 1 fan mo noon habang naglalaro ka ng baseball! Pogi bai! ? Nakakaselos tuloy ibang fangirls mo T_T

Pero ako parin ang nagwagi! Haha. Nga pala, naglalaro ka parin ba ng baseball diyan? Baka may umagaw ng titulo ko diyan bilang number 1 fan mo! Naku! Kukutusan talaga kita sa adams apple mo. :-P

Infairness din kay Edward ha, may sports din siya at soccer ito kaya siyempre bilang kaibigan niya ay sumuporta at naging fans kami ni Vanessa sakanya! Nanalo sila! :-)

After exam namin, magkikita na ulit tayo Edgar! ??? Miss na miss na kita at hindi na ako makapaghintay na makita kita ulit at syempre looking forward din ako sa araw na mayakap na kita ulit at sige na nga, makiss ka sa...

cheeks :-P

HAHAHA! Ingat ka diyan Edgar ha? I miss you at h'wag ka mag-alala sa akin, okay na okay naman ako kahit magkalayo tayo! Magpakatatag nalang tayo! ?

See you soon my Edgar.

Love,

Cathy

--

My Cathy, don't worry about being so busy, I am actually happy that you are because my happiness right now is that to make sure you're doing fine and that everything's going to be okay and I know exactly that even though I'm no longer physically with you, my love for you remains at alam kong pinapahalagaan mo ito.

I love you so much.

I'm happy that Vanessa and Edward's making things easy for you, masaya ako dahil masaya ka and I want to hear more of them from you.

Be happy always my Cathy and please... kiss me, not in the cheeks.

That's right, let's be strong.

See you, not soon, but I know we will, Cathy.

-

Ep. 7: Changes

Dear Edgar,

Bakasyon na namin and bukas magkikita na tayo! Ang bilis ng panahon no? Sabi ko sayo eh, hindi rin naman masyadong matagal ay mabibisita narin kita! haha!

Nga pala, gusto ko sana isama si Vanessa dahil syempre gusto ko ipakilala siya sayo ng personal! Kaso malayo naman kasi at may pupuntahan sila ng pamilya niya. Next time nalang siguro no? Tsaka naikwento ko naman dito si Vanessa eh kaya alam ko kahit papano magiging kampante ka at magiging okay ka sakanya. :)

Sa totoo lang kinakabahan na ako! 6 na buwan din na tiniis kong hindi ka makita! Hay! Di bale syempre may dadalhin ako para sayo! Cookies kaya? Sige try ko. :P

Ikaw din ba Edgar kinakabahan? Miss mo ko diba? Lagot ka sakin pag di mo ako miss! Ngayon palang, naiisip ko palang na makikita na ulit kita ay naluluha na ako!

Baka pag nagkita ulit tayo ay baka mahirapan na si Mama na ibalik ako dito at gustuhin ko nalang na samahan ka. Haha! Baliw lang! Miss kita eh! Sorry naman.

Oh, matutulog na siguro ako dahil may byahe pa bukas! ?

Finally Edgar! I miss you so much at sana hindi ka nagtatampo sa akin dahil ngayon lang ako nakauwi! Babawi ako promise! Hahaha

See you tomorrow my Edgar (^^,)

Love,

Cathy?

--

See you tomorrow my Cathy.

-

I don't know but I feel worried about what will turn out but I will trust everything's going to be okay.

Cathy's going to visit me and I'm looking forward to it.

"Happy birthday in heaven Edgar!" I heard Cathy said, she's here, loud and clear "Sorry ha? alam ko dapat hindi ako umiiyak dahil dapat happy lang. Pero, pwede ba kahit ngayon pwede kitang iyakan? Miss na miss na talaga kita kahit alam kong kasama kita ngayon."

she said crying her heart out and here I am doing nothing just hearing her out. It's breaking me.

"I miss you Edgar" she said in between her cry.

I miss you too Cathy, so much.

"Isang taon na tayong hindi nagkikita. Nakaya ko naman diba? Nakaya kong paniwalain ang sarili kong magiging okay din ang lahat kahit alam kong ang hirap hirap at kahit alam kong ang sakit sakit na paniwalain ang sarili kong okay lang, dahil alam kong kahit hindi kita nakikita ay alam kong ikaw, nakikita mo ako at sinasamahan palagi kung saan man ako naroroon..."

You were incredibly strong Cathy, really strong.

"Ang daya mo naman kasi eh! Akala ko ba, akala ko ba walang iwanan? Akala ko ba hanggang sa dulo tayo? bakit mo ako iniwan? Sabi ko naman diba, laban? At sabi mo lalaban ka... pero paano?bakit? sumuko ka naman eh. Sinuko mo 'ko!"

I fought for you Cathy, I fought for us, and up until now I'm still fighting for everything that's coming in between us

"Ang daya daya mo dahil pinaalis mo lang ako at sabi mo hihintayin mo ang pagbabalik ko kinabukasan sa hospital! Pero bakit?! Hindi mo man lang ako sinabihang huling beses na palang maririnig ko ang boses mo edi sana nakapag paalam man lang ako sa'yo at nakapagpaalam ka man lang sa akin diba? Bakit ang dayadaya mo!" she said shouting her frustrations out. It's my greatest heartbreak.

It was hard to let go Cathy, I want to say my good bye but I was too afraid to do so. I just can't let you go, and it hurts me that I can't do anything..

"Nangiwan ka at hindi ko alam kung kailan kita ulit makikita eh" she cried so hard "Paano na tayo mag-uusap ngayon? paano ko maririnig ang boses mo! Kahit nagpaalam ka lang sana sa akin Edgar, iintindihin ko naman eh! Hindi mo man lang binigyan ng chance para masabi ko sa'yo na mahal na mahal kita! Sabi mo hindi ka tutulad sa daddy ko..."

Cathy, I love you and I know that you love me too, sobra.

"Anak" I heard my mom

"Tita, alam ko sinabi niyo sa akin na maging matatag ako pero pasensya na po hindi ko lang talaga maiwasang maging ganito kahit ngayon man lang. Iniwan kasi ako ni Edgar!"

her words...

"Araw-araw kinakausap ko ang sarili ko na kunyare kausap ko si Edgar, pinapaniwala ko ang sarili ko na okay ako na okay ang lahat pero ang totoo po gustong-gusto ko ng puntahan siya at kung bibigyan man ako ng pagkakataon kahit sandali lang ay mayakap at makapag paalam man lang ako sakanya, yun lang naman po Tita at kahit gaano katagal ang susunod naming pagkikita makakaya ko naman eh, nabigla ako tita. Umasa ako na kinabukas pag balik ko sa hospital ay masisilayan ko parin ang mga ngiti niya kahit nahihirapan siya, kahit alam kong hahantong rin sa tuluyan niyang pangiiwan ay kahit abiso man lang"

I want to cry my heart out too...

Bakit ang bilis lang? Bakit ganito?

"Anak, makinig ka sa akin ha?" my mom " hindi totoong hindi nag paalam sa'yo si Edgar, habang inaayos ko ang mga gamit niya ay nakita ko ito at ito ay liham para sa'yo. Hindi ko alam kong ano ang laman ng sulat pero alam kong laman nito ang mga salitang nais sabihin ni Edgar noong buhay pa siya..."

I made a letter for Cathy. A letter from my heart.

My last words to Cathy and I just knew I had to do it because I sensed my end is near that time...

-

Dear Cathy,

I hope pag nabasa mo na 'to ay wala na ako. It's not that I want this more of a drama pero I just want this letter to somehow comfort you in any way possible.

Kamusta kana? Sana masaya ka, because if you are, I'm a hundred times happier than you are. :) Remember that I just wanna see a happy Cathy kahit alam ko na masasaktan ka sa pag-alis ko. Always smile and laugh ha? That's what I want to see up here.

I'm honestly so afraid as I'm writing this letter dahil sa totoo lang, I hate good byes and this letter might turn out to be one. But, kahit ganito man ang fate natin always remember that I was and I'm in my happiest when I'm with you and the memories that we shared are the things that I'll be carrying with me and will be asking God to remain with me forever.

Although I wished to stay with you for whenever, I can't for now. Pero maybe the next time will meet, baka may chance na tayo, and I'll wait for that.

Be happy and live your life the way it should be. Okay? I love you very much and I thank you for being one of the ultimate reason why I'll love my life even though it's short. Hehe.

I'm missing you always Cathy and always remember, I'm always right here watching you.

Love and be loved again because you deserve nothing but the best. I love you always and always.

See you again my Cathy.

Love,

Edgar ?

-

I hate to feel and hear Cathy crying because of me, I want her to be happy, I want her to go on and live her life the way she is meant to.

I've longed accepted our fate and if it's not at this lifetime, In another lifetime, another chance of us, maybe.

-
Ep. 8: Coping up

Dear Edgar,

Magiging matatag ako para sa'yo! At lagi mo tatandaan ha na sa lahat ng memoryang nabuo ko dito sa mundo, ang nakasama ka ang pinaka paborito ko rin. ?

Love,

Cathy?

--

After sometime, Cathy decided to talk to me again through writing and I'm happy the she chosed to go on and be appreciative. She's going to be strong not just for me and but the people around her and of course, for herself.

I'm at ease kahit papano.

-

Dear Edgar,

Mediyo matagal narin ang huli kong sulat sa'yo pero gaya ng sabi ko sa'yo noon paman ay lagi kang nasa puso ko Edgar. Always.

Unti-unti ko ng natatanggap ang kinahinatnan natin Edgar, nasabi ko na kay Vanessa at Edward na ang totoo ay nasa langit kana., nagulat sila siyempre pero nakaramdam ako ng suporta mula sakanila. Pinapagaan nila ang pakiramdam ko sa araw-araw ng pangungulila ko sa'yo at malaki ang pasasalamat ko dahil andito sila sa buhay ko ngayon.

Nga pala, hindi na ako nagpapatawag bilang Cathy ngayon, Marydale na ulit! (^^) Narealize ko na panahon narin na harapin ko si Marydale at bigyan sa ng magandang alaala kagaya nalang ng mga alaalang meron si Cathy.

Magiging masaya ako Edgar dahil alam kong masaya ka rin. Mahala na mahal kita.

Love,

Marydale ?

-

Marydale talks to me occassionally and I'm happy that she kept her promise to go on and be strong and to never forget me.

Dear Edgar,

Tatlon taon narin simula noong umalis ka at sana kahit boyfriend ko na si Edward ay sana malaman mong mahal na mahal kita and malaki ang pasasalamat ko na nagkakilala tayong dalawa. :)

Malapit na graduation namin Edgar. hehe Ipapakilala ko sa'yo si Edward pag-uwi namin sa La Union. Okay? Mabait siya katulad mo and he makes me happy too.

Ikaw ba si Edward? Hehe. charot lang Edgar. hihi

Love you!

Love,

Marydale ?

-

"Edgar, nice to meet you pre!" and it's Edward "Nagulat ako mediyo kamukha ta'yo." he laughed a bit. "H'wag ka mag-alala pre, hinding hindi ko pababayaan si Marydale dahil pakiramdam ko ako ang tutupad sa mga pangakong binitawan mo sakanya at h'wag kang mag-alala, I will love Marydale the way you've loved her or better, promise."

he said and I'm finally at peace and can finally let go of the worries I have for Marydale and just be happy watching her from above because right now I believed the more that is real, the more it is right...

...and if one day, I'll live again, I wish to end up spending my life with you or someone like you.

THE END.


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